:: love ::

tim has requested me to post a "real entry" to my blog, so here it goes... *thinks*

mum woke me up, or rather, got me up from my lazy staring at the wall-ness, at 10, cos dad was sending her to work and someone needed to watch dan. so i got up, and there's my little brother with his eyes glued to the tv. then i washed up and had breakfast, and went on the net.

about an hour after mum and dad left, daniel realises that they're gone. then he starts the usual "where's mum and dad?" "dad's gone to send mum to work" "but mum said that dad would be right back" *gives me disbelieving look* "dad! daaaaad! daaaadddddyyyyy!!!"

dad comes home and we have lunch, and dad decides to take daniel to the pool (again), so i quickly make up my mind whether or not to go to ken li's house. and then we go to woden, deliver mum's lunch to her, and i hop out, wave a cheerful goodbye while trying not to get blown away by the wind, and proceed to the library to borrow yet another shakespeare play.

go down to the bus stop, miss the bus, wait for the next one, start reading "the surgeon of crowthorne" for english, catch the bus to isaacs, walk to 25 alexander mackie cct, find ALL of them (with the exception of dionne who's reading yet another book) playing some game on the x-box. so for the next 4 hours or so, i sit on the floor or the couch, reading while watching them shoot each other and fanning myself with my fan.

tim taught me how to open a fan one-handedly! except i can't open it with a snap like he does. *pouts* ah well. i'll get there.

at about 6, we all piled into cars and drove to woden to queue up for the 6.40 showing of "the legend of zorro". it was pretty good. zorro's so much better than robin hood. cos he's spanish. and spanish men dressed in black are so much cooler than english men dressed in green tights.

tim... cedric diggory...

then i came home and ate. *nods* and discussed our QLD trip with mum and her need to have a house-sitter, and that she prefers my safety over propriety. (in other words, she'd rather have me stay at home alone with a guy, rather than home alone alone)

and that was my boring day. i hope this bores you enough not to have you ask for more cos i don't think i can do more...

1. try my best at school :: flashcards, study, the lot - i am so lazy, and will leave all study til the last minute, so i promise to study a loooong time beforehand and to do that nightly recap of all lessons that Heidi 先生 keeps telling us to do.
2. exercise at least twice a week except maybe in testing week - i know, i know, nay, i should exercise more in testing week, so i'm not so stressed, but i seriously think i won't have time to do anything other than study then. i am such a lazy bum, that i know i have to make a resolution just so i will do it. and exercise comes hand in hand with eating well and being healthy all over, cos you'd feel bad if you exercised and then pigged out on chocolate.
   
3. don't stop going to yf :: don't skip yf for school - yep, same resolution as last year. and i think i did it pretty well... don't remember a time when i skipped yf for school, although do remember studying at yf before testing week. *shrugs* at least i was there. better than the other option mum gave me - staying home from yf 'cos apparently we don't do that much at yf. meh
   
4. don't do anything idiotic (don't make stupid decisions) :: especially with regards to guys - me acting on my instincts means that often i don't make the right decision, just what i want, which is bad.
   
5. try my best to change chapel services, not altogether, just make them more interesting - at the moment, people are falling asleep in services and they don't know how things are relevant to them, i just want to show them that being a christian isn't about following rules, or about rituals, and bowing, and hymns, and candles... it's about a personal relationship with God, that's more fulfilling than any other you can have.
   
6. stop being selfish and listen more than i talk - God gave us two ears and one mouth for a reason. and i think that when i'm stressed and need to talk to someone about something, i'm very me focused. and that's bad. and i really do need to work on just listening and not offering advice.
   
7. read newspaper at least once a week - AST this year! argh!!! got to keep up with current news. mann...
   
8. practice piano at least once a day - unless (of course) like lynn says... inconceivably impossible, ie. testing week... man... i'm stressing about testing week and the year hasn't even started.
   
9. put 100% in everything - i tend to do things i don't want to do half-heartedly, and that's sooo not gonna work this year. and i tend to dawdle too. and grumble. and scowl.
   
10. even when grumpy/tired/whatever, learn to put happy mask on to mostly everyone - some people i just can't pretend to... i.e. the people who read me like a book. but happy mask to everyone else... yay!
    
11. do not miss any SC meetings or SCC practices (wake up extra early on Friday & Thursday mornings) - i make a commitment, i keep that commitment. *nods*
    
12. make sure exoweek and house happen. that means pestering Mr Harris, Miss Just, Mrs Godfrey and SUIS - man... i hate pestering people. but i will make this happen. *resolute face*
    
13. bake/cook/whatever for yf at least once a term (you know it makes you happy, even if only for a day) - the things i do for you guys...
    
14. don't take advice/constructive criticism badly. don't take patronising personally - smiley face! :D

1. Dizzee Rascal "Fix Up Look Sharp"
2. Gwen Stefani "Harajuku Girls"
3. Konichiwa Bitches "Robyn"

this week i will:

• start to establish my own personal style
• wear every outfit i put on with confidence
• dress everyday so i feel really good about myself

exercise to try: get energised
start your day with a healthy mix of wholemeal grains, fruit and yoghurt, snack on fruit, muesli bars and nuts and eat a balanced dinner of vegetables, fish, chicken or red meat.

distinguer :: to differentiate (urgh... calculus...)

quiddity \KWID-ih-tee\, noun:
1. The essence, nature, or distinctive peculiarity of a thing.
2. A hairsplitting distinction; a trifling point; a quibble.
3. An eccentricity; an odd feature.

sunday

make yourself more attractive on the inside. that means you're not allowed to look in the mirror all day. hey, at least we didn't make you do this one on a saturday!

i'd really prefer if this was a saturday. i mean, who saw me yesterday? my 'rents, dot, dan, nay, aunty anndey, mark, gerry, james, uncle frank, auntie wendy, lynn, uncle jason, aunty dore chee... the hermit crabs... a few more people, but not really that many compared with the entire church, especially since it was combined today. and i was backup singing. no way. although, i only looked twice: doing my hair, and putting on moisturiser.

i'll do it tomorrow. besides, i have a good excuse. dot said i lost it, but it was really in her room, so i didn't know where it was, hence i didn't know what i was supposed to do. mmhmm. yep.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone! yay! new year's on a sunday. which is good cos i got to see everyone. see being the keyword, cos dot dragged me home almost immediately after church. i hate how my family has a habit of doing that. von spent the night at nay's, she must not need to talk to people, oh no... especially not give people who weren't there last sunday their christmas cookies. don't worry, tim... i'm baking a new batch so you get fresh cookies. yay?

ahaha... highlight of today's message: uncle ken singing in english to what pastor ricky was singing in cantonese...

kinda worried after today's message... what if God doesn't want me to change chapel services? what if He wants them to be boring? or worse still, what if no one but me thinks they're boring? *mildly freaks out*

friday night: nate *in english accent* "peter! peter!" "what is it, lucy?" ... ok... this doesn't sound funny. trust me, it was funnier if you were there.

saturday
after all that saintly behaviour towards others it's time for some self-love. spend two hours of the day by yourself with your mobile switched off. watch your favourite movie, listen to your favourite tunes, go for a swim, paint a picture - whatever floats your boat! if you have a friend who's into the same things, let them join you, so long as you let yourself submit to those happy endorphins!

um... happy endorphins. yes. saturday. i sang. that's kinda happy. maybe?

what else did i do? i looked at my flashcards for the first time in the holidays with an extremely guilty feeling. *insert official apology to my teachers here*

went over to nay's house. ate pringles and one of her yummy choc drops (mmm... chocolate. but that was this morning) and nutrigrain for breakfast. i dunno. i feel happy when i'm baking stuff for people (i.e. christmas cookies) but it's too hot to do any baking anytime soon. so i'll wait til it cools down. it's supposed to do so on monday (yay!).

we should have a chick flick night. just for the heck of it. black and white movies, romantic comedies, etc. lynn wants to watch "singing in the rain". and i wanna see what everyone thinks is so good about "phantom of the opera". just a reminder :P

• saying "crap" a lot (i don't say anything else... it's just an automatic response. it's like "oh no!", except one syllable :P)
• not thinking a lot of responses through: going with instincts and intuition, especially when i think someone's patronising me. then i get all defensive and snobby. that's the only time i do that though!
• spending a lot of time on the internet
• worrying (yeah, yeah, yeah... i know!)
• dawdling (when i'm not particularly excited about something i tend to keep putting it off)
• being a perfectionist: not as bad as ling (yet), but still, just ask dot how long it takes me to do my nails. the "perfect" nails that you see are the product of many re-doings.
• i don't forget really easily. which is a good thing and also a bad thing. if you do something for me, i won't tend to forget it anytime soon (and most of the time, feel like i owe you), but on the other hand, if you somehow get into my bad books, i takes a long time (and a lot of effort) for me to get you out of there.

man... i have a lot of bad habits... and i probably have more, i just can't think of them at the moment.